Grumpy Red Fairy

Be Your True Self!

I've decided that anything that doesn't resonate with love, peace and my own inner wisdom is no longer important, and the only thing that matters is how I feel. Because when I feel good, and inspired and happy, I can do amazing things and I can be a better yoga teacher too!
Yesterday afternoon I was in a bad mood. I was studying yogic (esoteric) philosphy all day, spurred on by a recent conversation that diverged so much from my own truth I began to seriously question myself. And I'm glad I did. The things I read made my brain hurt. I've decided that I'm going to trust myself and my own inner wisdom, and stop listening to people who may be well meaning, that try to convince me of their beliefs, whether religious or spiritual, whether they've been practising for 10 years or 20, whether it's "ancient" or "the truth."

So in my grumpiness, I pulled an oracle card from the lovely and mysterious, Oracle of Shadows and Light, by Lucy Cavendish and there starting indignantly back at me was Grumpy Red Fairy. Yes, I thought. Thank you. I'm mad and I'm going to allow myself to feel this way. Which helped a lot.

The card's message is to Be Your True Self. Essentially it's saying to stop caring what others think, putting on a nicey smile or wearing clothes that you think will impress others - do what you feel.
"You too are fiery, playful, defiant and lots of fun. Be you. Be rebellious, even. Who's to say how you should look, or behave?" There's an analogy here of dressing however you want, playing drums (hehe, drumming is my sadly missed hobby) and also just accepting your mood how it is, not falling into the trap of being something you're not. But this card really spoke to me, not about appearance but about "fitting in" as a yogi, or as a yoga teacher, when I have my own belief system that may diverge massively from some yogis. It feels good to me and that's what matters. I don't give a *** what your guru thinks!

So reading this card was a relief, and I noticed as I allowed myself to connect with how I felt without judging it, and join the dots, I started to feel better. Permission to feel how you feel is so good!

I can now see how important it is for me to be myself. Listening to my own intuition, paying attention to how I feel inside is what guides me to my truth. I think if everyone paid attention to how they felt more often and not other people's thoughts, and followed their bliss, we would all be radiantly shiny beings! So others can have their beliefs, and I'll choose ones that are more sparkly. :-) And now I'm feeling much better.

So a summary of what I learnt is this:
1) Accept how you feel, without fighting it, and give yourself some love!
2) Choose your own beliefs, thoughts, life.

Namaste.

Lucy's cool oracle cards are available from www.blueangelonline.com